天使

感受到你肩上那沉重的负担

感受到你内心的忧伤

体会到你所遇到的困难

看见你脸上的忧虑

感受到你言语中的忧郁

察觉到你细微的变化

我懂

你是真的累了

我不懂

自己还有没有资格管你

也许自己已被代替

也许自己只是个多余

但是看见现在的你

我很担心

很心疼

也许生长在不同的家庭里

我无法真正体会到你的感受

但是我知道

你一定非常非常不好受

同样身为长子长女

我懂

你所承担的是什么

但是

比起自己

你所必须承受的

比我多了好多好多

家里的一切一切

都得由你包办

而我呢

却似个小公主

生活上的一切琐事

父母都已准备得妥妥当当

毫无忧虑

我想帮你

看见你

我无法睁一只眼,闭一只眼

你很坚强

比我想象的坚强

以前常说

你是个很幸运的小孩

但如今

自己才猛然发现

我错了

在你坚强的外表下

你隐藏了多少泪水

多少烦恼

那不是每个人都能预料的

今天

牵着你的手

即时只是那么一会儿

我深深地感受到你那粗糙手掌上

到底做了多少差

比起别人与自己纤细的手

你比别人做了多少苦

那可想而知

我不想看见你如此疲惫

好想成为你的天使

帮你减轻肩上的负担

但

回到现实

我仍是个普通的我

我不是仙度瑞拉里面的魔法婆婆

我没有魔法棒

没有魔法

我无法帮你实现愿望

我说过

想成为别人的天使

不单单是你

对于身旁的人

我都希望每个人都能开开心心的

而现在

我好想成为你的天使

为你做些什么

当当你的聆听者

在你需要人陪时陪着你

当你需要支持时

给你最大的鼓励

当你感到伤心, 压力时

逗逗你开心

当你不开心时

成为你的出气筒

当你哭时

想给你个拥抱

让你感到温暖

想让你知道

你不会是自己一个人

你是我一心想呵护的人

放不下你

我找不到原因

纯粹是因为想陪着你

看顾着你

成为你的天使

守护着你

也许这就是神的旨意

我们都懂

这份友谊得来不易

一路来我们经历了多少考验

面临了多少分分合合

面临了多少困难，挣扎，与争吵

努力过，也放弃过

但我坚信

是主的力量

主的爱

让我们能够继续坚持这份友谊

彼此照料

我要你开开心心

我要你快乐

我要你幸福

我要你感到温暖

仅仅如此简单

我不会放着你不管

更不会离弃你

会一直看顾你

就像妈妈看顾着小孩

直到哪一天

你放开了我

或者当你找到了真正属于你的天使时

我才会放下心

让你飞

记得

“即使心再坚强，也不要独自飞翔，我会一直在身旁”

加油

主耶稣爱你

我们爱你

Memorable 19th =)

Wow Wow Wow

Guess what!!

I am officially 19th!!!

Happy??

Definitely Not!!!

When we were young,

We hoped that time passes quickly and we wanna grow up fast

And yea

I think our dreams come true dy

From 1992~the year we born..

1993, 1994, 1995..2000..2001,2003, 2005......

Until now~~~ 2 0 1 1 ~~~

Gosh~~ I am 19th dy!!!

And guess what

This is the last year for me to have a "1" in my age..and...

I DONT WANT..>.<

Anyway

When 22th February passed..

It symbolized that I am one year older

And yea

I am now

This year's birthday was a special and memorable ones for me

Not celebrating with family

Not celebrating at Kuching

But

I celebrated it with awesome friends at KTT

A surprise birthday party organised by Gabriel, Fabian and Edmund

A birthday party that i never ever expected

An awesome birthday party

A warm and loving 19th Birthday

the girlssss..=D

The R Group?? XDD

Buddyssss..=)

The Kuching's Gangsss..XDD

Smilesss..=D

Yea

That's the celebration

=D

Well

Not only that

I wanna thanksssss for all those cute pressizz too!!

=D

The pressents.=D

(~Piglet from Family~Domo from Gab, Fab, Mund~Puppy from R groups~The cutie pink soft toy and wishing bottle from my lovely 8-2-A2 sisters~Piggie pen holder from Fab, "Xi Yang Yang key-chain from Yang~Bear bear from DoDo~")

All the birthday wishes that i appreciate most ~~=D

Thankiew Bian for the card that u made..i love it..=)

Special Thanksss to my Lovely Family

Who sent me a parcel far from home

A super cute piglet

I was so so so touched

MUACKSSS

THANKIEW EVERYONE FOR THE MEMORABLE AND AWESOME BIRTHDAY CELEBRATION

I APPRECIATE IT SO SO SO MUCH

I LOVE YOU GUYS

THANKSSSSSS

THANKS FOR MAKING MY 19TH AWESOME!!!

=)

All Of Us Are Perfect !!!

Feeling inferior??

Feeling useless??

Feeling stupid??

Well

STOP IT NOW

Recently

I came across a very nice song

Well

Maybe the name sounds rude but then..It's really a nice ones!!

~Fuckin' Perfect -- by Pink~

Here I share the MV of it

I found it very meaningful for everyone of us

Especially those who have no confidence in themselves and who feel inferior of themselves

In the lyrics

There is one verse...

"You're so mean

When you talk

About yourself,

you were wrong

Change the voices in your head

Make them like you instead

So complicated

Look how we

all make it

Filled with so much hatred

Such a tired game

It's enough

I've done all I can think of

Chased down all my demons

I've seen you do the same"

So

Stop thinking bad and thinking negative bout ourselves

We might not be perfect

We might not be pretty

But then

Always remember that

GOD is fair

He blessed everyone of us with certain strengths

Maybe we cant realize it now

But then

I am sure that we can realize it when the chances and times come

Just wait till the day comes

Just remember and..

Believe that

ALL OF US ARE PERFECT

WE ARE PERFECT IN GOD's EYES

Yeah..

WE DEFINITELY ARE

"Done looking for the critics
Cause they're everywhere
They don't like my jeans
They don't get my hair

Exchange ourselves
And we do it all the time
Why do we do that?

Why do I do that?
Why do I do that?

Pretty, pretty please
Dont you ever feel
Like you're less than
Fucking perfect

Pretty, pretty please
If you ever, ever feel
Like you're nothing
You're fucking perfect to me"

May God Bless All Of Us

=D

梦

不知从几何时

我开始畏惧

畏惧躺在床上休息的每一刻

我不懂

自己仿佛有预知未来的能力

说到做梦

自己也不是个常常发梦的人

但是

往往发梦了

梦也会跟着实现了

好奇怪

上天仿佛要让我预知将会发生的伤心事

已经好几次了

梦见了最不想面对的事情

往往醒来后

自己便开始害怕 担心 烦恼

甚至有时哭着醒来

心痛 心碎

身旁的人

总认为是因为自己想太多

可是

当下的自己

最清楚明了

这不仅仅是个梦如此简单

是个好特别好特别的预感

不好的预感

到底预知是好或不好呢?

当然 这也不是全然的坏

因为预知在先

当事情发生时

自己早已受伤够了

心疼够了

在该面对的当儿

自己也早已做了心里准备

在事情发生的瞬间

自己的心也早已破碎

一切的一切

也变得没什么了

算了

麻痹了

梦

真的让我又怕又惊

为什么会发梦呢?

又有谁 可以为我躯赶恶梦呢?

If only If

You will never know

How much I care and how much i hurt

when you shoo me away in front of others

You will never know

How sad I am when you ignoring me but being so nice with others

You will never know

How much I care when u fooled me in the public

You will never know

How I feel when I heard others talk and gossip about your stuffs

You will never know

How I feel when I advising you about your stuffs although I am one of the sufferers

You will never know

How sad I am when you keep complaining about me

You will never know

How my heart is bleeding when you leave me behind after u found new friends

You will never know

How helpless I am when I need someone to talk to but you don even care about me

You will never know

How many times i force myself to smile and laugh in front of you

You will never know

How tough it is for me to look strong and mature in front of you

You will never know

How much i put down my ego just to maintain this friendship

You will never know

How much i suffer just to protect you and help you from being hurt

You will never know

How patient i am when others pitying me for being so stupid

You will never know

How others judge me when i keep fooling myself

You will never know

How many times i cry alone in the middle of the night

You will never know

How worry I am when I know you are sad and down

You will never know

How sad I am when u cry

If only you know

IF

我疯了?

时而伤感

时而快乐

到底哪个才是真实的我?

现在的我

很平静

心情好放松

虽然日子很闷

时间每天匆匆流逝

感觉上过得好茫然

但是

却觉得自己好轻松 好轻松

可以大笑

可以大方把心里的不愉快说出

不会再隐藏

已开始学习放开

坦然

面对人生

有时甚至对自己无意间所说出的心里话感到惊讶

以前从不说出的心事

也仿佛渐渐被摊开

不是从别人的嘴里说出

而是出自自己的口

难道

这就是所谓的放下自己吗?

心里好舒服

别人做什么 说什么

久了

也觉得没什么了

背负在肩上的重担也仿佛消失了

肩膀好轻好轻

这种感觉

真的已经好久好久没有感受到了

仔细想想

难道自己真的自我封闭好久了吗?

当下的我

到底怎么了呢?

I Think I Found YOU =D

Yea

For those who know me

You guys should know that i am not someone who easily believe in someone

And Yea

I am one who usually cover up my true self

I am not someone who will show you my natural's side unless

I truely believe in you

I hardly cry in front of others

Hardly express my sadness

You guys might think that i am strong and firm

mature and open-minded

But well

For those who know me

I believe that

You can see my pain in heart and soul

And among one of them..is no other than..

YOU

Recently

I realize that

There's someone who i can express my sadness and show my weakest side

And Yea

I am glad that it is YOU

From before till now

You are still the one

You never leave me alone when i need you

Even though sometimes..

I might forget bout you because of busy and everything

But you never give up on me

Because of all those bad memories that happened in the past

I become one who do not easily believe in people

Although

I can feel your sincerity

I just cant believe how i feel and I don't believe in myself

I just cant believe how blessed i am and how lucky i am

For i don't think I am one who deserve all the lucks and blessings

I scare

I fear

I try to ignore all the loves and cares given by others

As I was trying to protect myself from being hurt again

But

DORIS CHONG

You make me realize that how blessed I am

How lucky I am

You make me realize that

At least there's still someone who i can rely on

Who loves me

Cares me

And

Needs me

And It's you

You make me realize that I am worth a living

I am not a useless ones

I am not a failure

And

I deserve all the loves and cares

Thank You For Everything

Thank you for being with me when i need you

Thank you for trusting me when everyone doubt at me

Thank you for your support

Thank you for your love and care

Thankssssssssss lotsssss

I LOVE YOU

THANKS GOD THAT I FOUND YOU

MY DEAR

M.U.A.C.K.S

Happy Chinese New Year !!!!!

Hey Everyone!!

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!!!!

新年快乐!!!!

May all of you have an awesome and wonderful Rabbit Year

Do take good care

And

Enjoy till the max yea!!!

God bless

=D

When Boredom Strikes

LOL

I am so so so bored now

Drama marathon till my head spin

Movie marathon till my eyes blur

Walking here and there in the small compound of my house

Going up and down the staircase

Finding cookies and cakes to eat

I just cannot sit down quietly and stay still

LOL

So

Ends up

I find out something very LAME to spend my time

And that is.....

Playing with webcam

=.=

Sound very very stupid right??

Who ask boredom strikes me in this moment

XD

So..

I come out with something very silly...

LOL

I am very crazy right??

But then

Please excuse me

This is the result of being unable to play fire cracker

And being nothing to do during New Year

When everyone else is being so excited and "high"

It's indeed The Power of Boredom

Make me do something really don suit me

LOL

Anyway

At least doing something crazy can make people laugh

And make myself laugh nonstop too

XD

Bla~~~

=D