你还要可怜多久？？

偶然，翻开报章，一则小故事吸引了我。已经好久好久没有如此强烈地被一篇文章所吸引。这则故事，让我整颗心平静下来，沉醉在宁静的思考中。回想过往的一切，我领悟到一个新的 人生哲理。

心理学中有一则著名的小故事。有个人去到某个酒吧， 进了门， 看见一只狗趴在角落哀哀叫， 一直到他离去前，那只狗还是在原地不停地哀叫。

酒客忍不住问坐在狗儿身边的老人：“ 为什么它一直叫个不停？”

“ 因为它趴着的地方有一根针。” 老人淡淡地说。

酒客一听，明白狗儿哀叫的原因， 却也更困惑地说 ：“ 那它为什么不离开呢？”

老人说：“ 因为它还不够痛吧！”

听完了故事， 或者你也可以想一想此刻的自己， 想一想你悲伤了多久， 想一想，你扮演着这可怜角色是否够久了？

认真想了想， 感觉人，真是个奇怪的动物， 为什么我们总是要等到心彻底被撕碎后，才懂得从悲伤中拯救自己？为什么不能及时让悲伤痊愈？为什么非要让自己成为故事中的可怜主角，不停哭泣与悲伤呢？

作者说 ~ 记得，第一次还能叫学习， 第二次可以得到教训，第三次会让人认清事实，但是到了第四次， 第五次了后， 若再允许这样的事发生， 那不是因为苯， 而是你已经沉溺其中， 以痛为瘾，而从这里开始， 我们便能大胆地断言， 有问题的，已不再是负心的他或她， 更不是那无可抗拒的命运，而是宁愿受苦却不为自己负责的你。

现在的我才发觉，原来，让自己受苦的人， 往往都不是别人，而是自己。悲伤与欢乐，其实都掌握在自己的手中。选择权在自己的手掌心上。你有两个选择 ：你选择快乐？还是选择悲伤呢？

若已选择快乐，那此刻的你，应该打从心里告诉自己：“ 我要快乐！我要大笑！我是快乐的！”

相反的，选择悲伤的你呢？遗憾地，你就只能继续当个悲伤的配角，躲在角落暗自哭泣，一直到哭累了，才肯看清现实。

其实，扪心自问，有多少人哭泣，是为了吸引别人的注意，渴望得到别人的关心与恩宠呢？

每个人，都渴望被爱；每个人，都渴望身旁有个可以给他依靠，关怀与温暖的人。但是，千万要记得，你是你，别人始终是别人。快乐，也许是别人带给你的，但它也是你带给自己的。同样的，悲伤，也许是因为某个人，某件事，但是，也许那也是自己在心灵上造成的，是真的悲伤吗？还是你早已成为故事中的小狗，沉溺其中， 以痛为瘾，宁愿受苦却不敢面对现实，不敢为自己负责呢？

现在的你，开心吗？是真的开心吗？还是仅仅在伪装呢？

现在的你，伤心吗？还在为某件事或某个人悲伤呢？

快乐与悲伤，你选择哪个呢？

那，做下选择后，下一步又该如何，又会如何呢？

静下心，让我们仔细想想吧！

快乐，永远永远，都是最棒，最明智的选择 =)

女孩的心

小女孩

一个不懂事的称号

没有敏锐的脑袋

不会说好听的话语

不懂得察言观色

直来直往

感情用事

是她最大的缺点

女孩

懂得提起但放不下的决心

使到自己伤痕累累

暗自留下的泪水

是傻子的泪水

是悔恨的泪水

也是自嘲的泪水

女孩心中的空虚与悲伤

无法被填补

渐渐地

形成了一道很深的伤痕

久久无法痊愈

所面对的痛苦与悲伤

一直环绕着这破碎的心

鲜红转变成灰

"砰"

不见了

女孩

无法对自己坦诚

长久地蒙骗自己

并安慰自己

心深处

早已知道的答案

早已知道的结果

都已被心中的巨石当成虚幻

但是

女孩深知

现实仍旧属于现实

无法改变的现实

终究无法改变

惟有强迫自己

朝向不愉快的现实

女孩

迷失在生命的旅程中

在迷宫里徘徊

终究找不到回家的出路

由于心中的疑惑

偏低的信心

因此总让自己生活在幻影中

混乱现实的生活

女孩

一个傻瓜的女孩

一个愚蠢的女孩

在一个悲伤的夜晚

写下心中所有的想法

女孩

一字一字的拼写着

但是

所要表达的

女孩自己也搞不清

*完结*

Cooking!!!!

3rd week in KTT

Finally

We can cook ourselves

WHY??

Because my housemates' parents from Penang brought different kinds of cooking utensils and electrical appliances here..

What do we have??

Well, we have a rice cooker now..=)

As we have no gas stove here..rice cooker can be regarded as the most important appliance for us to cook daily..

Not only that we cook rice by using the rice cooker, we also use it to cook soup..=)

Secondly, we have a steam cooker too..=)

And..one more thing..We have a REFRIGERATOR..!!!

Well, it belongs to my housemate, Yu Wei, but we do share it to put all the veges and other stuffs..really big thanks to Yu Wei's parents for bringing the fridge here..=)

And so..

started from Monday

We cook our dinner ourselves..

What did we cook for the first day??

HAHA..

We only used the rice cooker and mixed all the veges and stuffs inside to cook a soup

It's kinda like a steamboat

But, a healthy steamboat i think..with all the veges, carrots and so on..

at least better than eating outside foods everyday

=)

preparing the food..=)

our end products =)

Well, it was a simple ones..

even though it might not have a good and attractive appearance,

but

it tasted nice and delicious as it was cooked by ourselves and it had the taste of..

HOME & FAMILY

and this made me kinda homesick and i miss the time my mum cooking

and i miss mummy's soup

XD

So, you can see improvement in my room now..

it's getting more and more stuff inside the room and..

feel more and more like a home..

a family..

with my housemate..

Really thanks GOD for letting me to have three nice housemates here in KTT

With them staying together in an apartment

I feel secure and happy

THANKS GOD For Everything

THANKS for all the blessings here

I LOVE YOU GOD

=)

Fantastic Saturday

10 July 2010

Saturday

Finally we got the chance to go Kuala Lumpur City

Wow

By the time we arrived at Bukit Bintang

Only then we realized that we were actually staying at KL now..LOLz..XD

So, where we went to????????

Firstly, we went to KL Central for KTM of course..

It took us one hour plus to arrive there from college..and it was crowded..really "Malaysia's style"..People squeezing here and there..no personal space at all..lolx..wondering how come Malaysia cant learn from Singapore huh?? Why cant at least be more systematic?? Really "Apa-apa pun BOLEH lah~~" XD

So, after that we took our transit through LRT to Bukit Bintang..There we went to Sungei Wang..(our first destination)

Well, nothing interest actually..everything or every shops still the same..I bought two t-shirt for RM 16..I think it is cheap and i need it here..=)

Interesting places we found there......???

~ GREEN BOX ~

Well, i think this place is interesting for those who sing-K and i am the one..haha..XD

Oh gosh, the price here is really expansive especially it is Saturday..But seriously when compared to Kuching K-Box, it is really cooler cause the songs there are latest and the room is really big..really COOL..But, ends up we did not go there..XD

Then......

~ T-Bowl ~

What's it?? XD..Well, it is a Toilet Bowl Restaurant or something like bathroom restaurant..haha..XD..It is damn cool and funny o~~ haha..XD

I am glad to find this restaurant..Before that, i used to see the advertisement regarding this shop in Epop Magazine and everytime when i read the advertisement i was like : "OMG Mum, this shop is so cool and funny, damn cute!!! " And YESH!! I been there dy mummy..haha..XD

the front part of the restaurant

One of the table..it's quite blur

the table..Well, there's a transparent glass at its surface of cause..haha..XD..it's like a sink..XD

the menu!!! cute eh?? haha..still got a toothbrush at the side..haha..XD

My drink~~Mango Sago..XD

My food~Baked Cheese Curry Rice..yummy yummy..XD..it's cute..haha..=P..but Edmund says it is gelik..lolz..haha..XD

Well, if you ask me..is the food nice?? My answer will be actually it's just normal..haha..XD..only that the restaurant is unique that attract people to eat there..

And the price???

EXPANSIVE..>.<

Spend RM20++ there just for one lunch..but it's my first time been there and i think i will not go there again..perhaps after a long time later..haha..XD

After that..

We went Times Square

Well, many shops, cheap sales, but i did not buy anything although the clothes are really attractive as i do not have the chance to wear those clothes in KTT

lolx

So, later..me and Bian went Red Box singing K

At first, we planned to go together

6 of us together

who knows

All of them changed their mind for not singing k

Sianz..

But, as me and bian insisted to sing

So, we just sing ourselves

Red Box

A nice K-centre

Big room

Latest Songs

and as only 2 of us

no people "rampas" mic with us so we could sing freely

Feel Nice!!!

..haha..

We really enjoyed it

But

We spent RM33++ for that

worth???

Don't care..cause i really ENJOYED it so much!!! XD

Released all my stress and burden inside my heart

Shouting freely

OH YESH!!!!

So,

That was the day

Over already

But a good memory indeed

=)

Thanks God For all the Blessings

Love You My Dearest God

My New Life at Kolej Teknologi Timur

First of all

I am really sorry my dear blog and readers for being down-dated for such a long time..

Really busy these days..

WHY??

Because school reopened and I started my whole new life

A new story of mine....

Where am I now??

Well

KOLEJ TEKNOLOGI TIMUR

Ever heard that??

I am sure that you guys do not know where is this college as i did not have any idea about it too before i came here..LOLzz..XD

It is located at Sepang, a middle of nowhere actually..haha..XD

Surrounded by natural environment and..

far from the kl city

the nearest is to Nilai, Negeri Sembilan..lolz..XD

But yea..

It is definitely a conducive place to fully focus in study..haha..=D

Well..about my life here??

Hmmm...

So, for the first week, we had our orientation..

It was a tiring week. We had to wake up early in the morning and sleep late for performance training practices. Besides, the activities were really packed, had to rush here and there, mostly ice-breaking, briefings and so on..

But well, it was over and the lessons started this week already..

We are all being divided into classes with 27 of us each..

And yea..

SADLY..

ALL the lecturers here are really "PRO" in teaching..

All are Malays with just very few Indians

I am sure that everyone will tears out because of their profession..=.='''

Now only i know the fact that

Students studying here MUST really strive very hard and have to fully depends on themselves in order to succeed

If not..

I am sure that we are going to fail

>.<

So..

Before this, let me share something about the performance competition during the orientation..

Very luckily, i was in group 2 again..(Number 2 is really my number..i got everything with number 2 here..lolx..XD )

We were being arranged to perform a choir..(It was indeed a very special choir)

My group was a very crazy group..name?? GAGA..(My seniors really love Lady Gaga very much..zz..=.=''')

So, the song that we sang was a remix song, we started with "Heal the World", then continued with "Waka waka", "Eenie Minie", "Baby", " What You Waiting For ", "I Got The Feeling" and ended with "Bad Romance"..It was a nice remix..and i enjoyed every training session with all my group members so much..and..Guess what???!!!

WE GOT SECOND PLACE AMONG THE TEN GROUPS!!! OH YES!!!! THANKS GOD =)

Our hard work did pay off at the end..=)

CONGRATULATIONS GROUP 2 GAGA!!!!

me and Bibiana (one of the sarawakian here..=D)

crazy make-up and GAGA pose..lolz..XD

CONGRATULATIONS GAGA!!

our lovely facis and seniors =)

Well, i liked myself now as i really open up myself to get involve in all sorts of activities..including the crazy ones which i never do before..i shouted loudly with them, sang loudly with them, danced happily with them, applied crazy make-up for the choir and I enjoyed every moments here..=D

And Now..Let me introduce you guys my room..=)

**My living room~~

haha..my dear roommate~Gong Bao =)

**My Bedroom~~

Guess which one is mine?? haha..i am sure those who know me will know..XD

**My Study Table~~

nice?? =P

**Toilet~~

Well, at first it is so terrible when we first moved in..but now..i am satisfied with it..=)

**Shower room~~

Still ok isn't it??XD

**Sink~~

Well, the sink is spoiled..>.<

Well,

Coming to KTT

I learn to be independent

or perhaps

I HAVE TO BE INDEPENDENT

=)

The first thing that made me felt satisfied when i first came here is that

I washed my own clothes

LOLzz..

Well, maybe this is a very normal thing for everyone

But..

I felt so satisfied and happy when i looked at the clothes hanging at the balcony

I was like

"YES!!! I did it!!!"

Of course..

not only washing clothes

I have to do the housework myself

prepare my meals

arrange my time wisely

manage myself well

And

Surprisingly..

I can handle them well

even things that i have never done before

I tried to handle every tasks and i did it

YES!!!

=)

Well, this is my first time building a book rack for myself..i hurt my finger while hammering..lolz..>.<

But i gain a new experience again..feel nice..=)

So,

That's all for this post..

I think it is too long already..

=)

Will share about my life here in the next post ya..

Take Care and All The Best Everyone

May God Bless All Of Us

=D

P.S: Oh ya, I joined Christian Fellowship here and i am really happy to have the chance to know more about God here =) I went to church too =) It was awesome..=) I feel so warm while joining every events related to God..=) In the path of getting used to it and get closer to HIM..

THANKS GOD FOR EVERYTHING =)

MUACKS

Leaving

28 Jun 2010

Started my first journey to Kolej Teknologi Timur

A small college located at Sepang, Kuala Lumpur

This is my first time leaving home for study

Few months staying away from my lovely house, lovely bed, lovely parents, lovely family, lovely cousins and of coz my lovely friends

But Thanks God..I am not alone..

Together with Bian, Edmund and Gabriel, we started our footsteps, traveled through South China Sea using MAS airlines, towards our future pathway..that is..KOLEJ TEKNOLOGI TIMUR (KTT)..

Before that..i thought that i will cry for this leaving

But..

I did not..

In contrary

I felt quite excited

Well, frankly..i did tears..by the moment when i stepped out of my house

when i heard my mum crying and saying at the same time

"Have to leave already o..Chien"

I cant control my emotion

Tears rolling down my cheeks

just wanna say

I LOVE U

MUM AND DAD

I LOVE U

MY SIBLINGS

I LOVE YOU

MY SWEET HOME

I LOVE YOU

MY COUSINS

I LOVE YOU

MY FRIENDS

I LOVE

KUCHING

MY HOMETOWN

A PEACEFUL TOWN

I MISS EVERYONE & EVERYTHING

TAKE CARE EVERYONE

I WILL DO MY BEST HERE

I WILL STAY STRONG

LOVE YOU ALL

MUACKS

*HUGS*