Friday, March 18, 2011

" There's nothing that can stop me from missing
There's nothing that can stop me from loving
There's no one who love me as you two
There's no one who care me more than caring themselves. "

As the time passes Every second Every minute
Every hour Every day
I remind myself that the time left to be with you guys
are getting lesser and lesser
I don't wanna regret
I wanna cherish every moments being with you guys
I wanna tell you guys how much I Love You
...As much As possible...

Just a random post
To express my deepest feeling in heart now
And that is...

I LOVE YOU MUM & DAD
I AM MISSING YOU GUYS SO SO SO MUCH
I AM MISSING HOME
EVERY DAY EVERY MINUTE & EVERY MOMENT
I LOVE YOU

DO TAKE CARE AND DON'T BE STRESS
DON'T OVERWORK AND TAKE ENOUGH REST
YOUR DAUGHTER IS DOING FINE HERE AND NO WORRY
M.U.A.C.K.S.S.S.S.S.




Friday, March 11, 2011

Piano


Just a very sudden feeling that
I MISS MY PIANO SO SO SO MUCH
I miss the time my fingers touching the keys
Black and White keys
Even though they look the same
But each with different tones and sounds
Playing together
They make awesome musics
They reflect my mood and emotions
Bringing me into happiness and dreams
It brings me back to memories too

Musics
Full of Miracles and Magic
Cleanse all my moody emotions
It is just so perfect that
It has become part of my life
And that's the reason why..
I LOVE IT SO MUCH

A Piano
Although it's just a simple musical instrument made of wood
Painted black or white
With all the long and short black and white keys
But if you think about it seriously
You may realize that
It's just like the different kinds of people around us
Making up our life a perfect and wonderful ones
Full of freshness and excitement
Fill our life with bitterness and sweetness
Imagine if there is only one black or white key
Can u produce amazing pieces??
Definitely It's Impossible

P.I.A.N.O
I Seriously Missssssss You So Much
One more month to go
And i will be able to touch and put my fingers on you again
The time please come soon
=)

Thursday, March 10, 2011

爱很简单



长大了
才发现
爱 可以很简单
以前常认为
"我爱你"
只局限于我爱的人
那唯一的他
但是渐渐地
我发觉
其实每件事 都没有一个条规
不一定只能告诉他
可以献给好多好多的人
不需要隐藏
因为它就是如此简单
当你爱上一个人时
即使不说出
但行为 言语 都会时刻流露出来
就是如此

小时候
常觉得告诉父母"我爱你"
是件好羞耻的事情
所以从来不曾告诉他们
但是现在远离家乡
我懂
那想法错得多离谱
独自一人时
当我需要安慰
父母一句简单的"我爱你"
即便是一个简单的心号
都让我的心动容
让我感动
让我重新得力
让暖流充满全身
更让我懂得 有多奇妙
现在的我
当然也不会刻意隐瞒 我爱他们
每晚道晚安时
都会告诉他们
我爱他们
我想他们
那个
是我真挚的
心中满满的
对父母 家人的
如此简单

除了父母
当然还有朋友
一个他
让我发现
爱人是如此简单
不一定要所谓的男女关系
朋友之间的爱 其实更得来不易
为了他
你可以舍弃好多东西
那爱 是无私的
不求回报的
无时无刻 挂念着他
看顾他 照顾他 安慰他
为他的喜而乐
为他的忧而愁
那都是发自内心
最纯真 最自然的爱
一切的一切
只因为

在礼拜堂里
主那长阔高深的
牧师的爱 传道的
弟兄姐妹们的
深深地感染着每个人
也是如此简单
虽然互不相识
但是因为主的
把彼此拉近
互相代祷 互相关怀
那更是难得可贵
这属灵的家
仿佛是能力的泉源
它能把心里的一切烦恼抛除
它能让受伤的心灵得到帮助
那都是
因为彼此爱着同一的主
因为主的
让我们懂得什么是爱己与爱人
也让我们懂得被爱的感觉

充满着力量
能让奇迹发生
是无私的付出
是自然的真情流露
让人感到温暖
在我们失意时重得信心
让人和睦
使人开心
使世界变得更美好
如此美妙

每个人都需要被爱
每个人都渴望被爱
不应该刻意隐瞒
当你让爱真情流露时
你可以改变好多
无论是家人也好
朋友也罢
甚至是四周围的人
认识的 不认识的
孤儿 老人
患病者
贫困者
世界上所有所有的人
我们都应该及时表达自己的爱
因为爱
它是得来不易的
与其去恨一个人
把自己搞得累乎乎的
伤心又伤身
倒不如把恨转为爱
成为爱的化身
把爱献给四周围的人
让生活更美好

好好珍惜身旁的人吧
珍惜每个在一起的机会
时间不等人
能够爱时
就及时去爱
不要等到来不及了
失去了
才发觉已没机会了

从现在起
我会大声地告诉所有我爱的人

我爱你


Tuesday, March 8, 2011

欺骗与借口

不懂从何开始
我渐渐地学会如何对自己撒谎
如何为自己找借口
好多好多不属实的借口
经常问自己 原因何在?
难道只是存心在保护自己吗?

别人对自己的好
别人对自己的关心
我宁可视而不见 让他幻灭
也不敢去相信 不敢去接受
我宁愿自己去承受一切 承担一切
也不愿意相信身旁还有别人
害怕 畏惧
使我不再相信身旁的人
害怕被伤害
害怕受伤
使我对身旁的人产生怀疑
使我为自己找借口去逃避
使我离开

巩固自己的心墙
建好自己的心房
我甚至开始要求别人忽略自己
让自己受伤 孤独面对一切
选择改变自己
把自己搞得乱七八糟
让自己成为坏人
但是心却常常被旁人所感动
常问自己
为何偶尔做做坏人都难?
现在知道了
原因在于自己的本性
坏人
根本与自己的本性是格格不入的
我厌恶坏人
厌恶恶言
恨恶没有道德品德的人
甚至歧视他们
现在强迫自己成为他们
那我岂不是在厌恶自己 歧视自己

脑海中
自己常编制好多虚构的幻想
明明心里知道真相
但却一直怂恿自己逃避现实
也不愿去面对
心里的结 心里的阴影
一直捆绑着自己
无法松开
旁人无法解开 自己也无法走出
阴影
使自己变得脆弱
使自己变得胆怯
使自己无法勇敢起来
我输给了自己
也输给了考验

虽说过去都已成为过去
但至今
那过去仍然跟随着我
紧紧抓住不放

时间
我需要时间
力量
我需要力量
勇敢
我需要勇敢
坚强
我需要坚强
上帝
我需要你
请你帮助我走出阴影 走出过去

我需要你

Tuesday, March 1, 2011

Another Breakthrough!!!

HoHoHo
Well
As I mentioned before
KTT makes me grow a lot
Yea..It's damn true
Really a lotttttttt more than i expected
From a quiet girl who is shy and timid
I have transformed into a NEW girl who is more confident in myself now
Joined in choir last time
And now
I tried a new task
And that is.......... DRAMA!!!!
=D

Yea
As it is our college's FESTNI now
(Festival Seni- a competition among groups which involve all the students in our college)
We are compulsory to get involved in a competition and yea, I ended up joining Drama which i had never ever think of getting myself involved in one day..LOL

At first
I was like
"Are you crazy??
You don't even know how to act and you don't even have experience in it and yet
you join drama competition!! What can i do??"
LOL
But yea
At the end
I was really really so happy and so satisfied that I DID IT
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Our Drama title was "Cinderella Version 2.0"
Guess what
We only had one and a half day to prepare all the script, props and practise!!
Well actually
We had been practising for the whole week dy but then not until the very last minute that
the lecturer in charge gave us a bad news that our story chosen - Puteri Gunung Ledang is not qualified for the theme
All of us was like...What The..???
Competition only left 2 more days and now everything ruined???
Desperate Sad Stress
Seriously..
BRAINSTORMING!!!
Fortunately
THANKS GOD
We managed to come out with a new story line
And again really really lucky that
We managed to finish our practice and props in time!!!
THANKS GOD
I BELIEVE THAT WE DID A GREAT JOB THAT DAY!!!

I acted as Cinderella's Fairy God-Mother (Ibu Pari-pari) this time
It's quite an important character for the drama as I will appear in the very first and final scenes
And yea
Definitely..
I MUST DO WELL WITHOUT MAKING MISTAKES AS I HAD TO GIVE A VERY GOOD FIRST IMPRESSION FOR THE JUDGES
STRESSSSSSSSS

I practised so hard
At first I felt like giving up as i didn't have the courage to express myself fully in front of the crowd
That's my weaknesses
As all of us know
Fairy God-Mother is one who is so so so happy at every moments and full of confidence
And one more difficult part is that..
The Charm "Bibidi Bobidi Boo" was killing me
I had to repeat it so many times that i kept practising nonstop until i manage to complete the cham without any gap in between

Acting like a child
Acting as a fairy is really not an easy task
Have to express out ourselves fully
Have to stay smiling and cheerful even deep inside we are shivering and nervous like mad
HAHA
But God gave me strength
He gave me determination and courages
He gave me calmness too during the day
I thought i will be very nervous acting on stage and i so scared that i might forget my lines
But then came out
I WAS NOT
TOTALLY
I was not nervous at all
I felt so so so calm
I was in the mood of acting
I did my very best and i acted out confidently
Yea
All my friends were shocked
Even I myself was shocked
I did not know where my strength come from
But I believe that
It's God
He is the one who gave me strength and power

And yea
That's it!!
ALL OF US DID A GREAT JOB AND WE DID IT WELL
We had fun
And We Really Enjoyed It
!!!!!!!!!!!
This was the first time i acted in a drama
(well, actually it's the 3rd times dy but then it was my first time being given such a big task)
And I am really so satisfied that
I DID IT
WOAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
REALLY SO SO SO HAPPY!!!!!!!!
GOOD JOB SIN CHIEN!!!
XD

Here are some photos to share with you guys~~