Promise..

From now on..
I tell myself that i must stay brave and strong..=)
I will never give up
Because i have made the promise
And
I keep it in mind
Thank you for all the cheers and helps
Thanks for scolding me when i am stupid
And
i will keep to the promise
No need worry about me
=)
You too
Must stay strong and brave
Take good care and be determined
This time
You leave earlier than me
I am still waiting here
And soon
you are going to leave just like others
What i only hope is that you can achieve success and
I strongly believe that YOU CAN DO IT
=D

Let achieve our dreams and ambitions
Good Luck and All The Best
God Bless
ADD OIL, ADD PETROL
=)

结束了。。

我可爱的三年级班 =)

4月30日

工作到一段落了
转眼间
已经工作四个月了
今天
挥手向可爱的小朋友们道别
原本应该感到心情放松
但是
相反的
心中却感到莫名的空虚与不舍
同时
也感觉到失落与伤心
在同学们向我说再见的那一瞬间
我感觉到鼻头酸酸的
心疼疼的
我

好舍不得你们

一句句的老师再见
谢谢老师
老师几时才回来教我们
老师去哪儿读书
为什么老师读书不能回来教我们
老师去读大学吗
老师要走了吗
老师我有功课
老师我星期一还有听写
听在心里
仿佛一道暖流
流到我的心深处
好感动
可是
老师得离开了
对不起没办法考你们听写
教导你们功课
监督你们了

四个月里的每一天
老师都对你们大声嚷着
责备你们
逼你们听课，做功课
我懂
你们很烦
也很讨厌老师骂你们
但是
对不起
这一切都是逼不得已的
没有这么做
老师便失职了

因为是你们的老师
我不得不骂你们
因为爱你们
因为要你们成功
老师才会如此
往往骂你们
老师也不好受
看见你们哭
老师的心也在淌血
老师很对不起
但是
没办法
希望你们谅解
可是
最令我欣慰的是
无论老师如何大声地责骂你们
最终
你们仍然对着老师笑嘻嘻的
还与老师天真无邪地聊着
感觉很幸福

这一走
便是七年左右
在离开的那一刻
我一直在想
十年后
你们会是什么样子的呢
学业又会是如何
你们过得好吗
还记得老师吗
听话吗
乖吗
还会再遇见你们吗
脑海中浮现了好多好多问题
真的好好奇
但是
不管如何
我还是要说
你们一定要好好努力读书
听老师的话
做个懂事的乖孩子
虽然无法陪你们到最后
但老师真心祝福你们
健康快乐
我爱你们
还有
老师等着你们上报纸哦
=)

这段期间
将成为非常难忘的回忆
威望补习中心
一个令我成长
让我懂得如何提起责任
让我懂得如何与人交谈
不管是校长也好
老师也好
学生也好
家长也罢
我学会如何应付不同人的需求
也懂得如何克制自己
即便很辛苦
但是
我真的真的
长大了好多好多
踏入社会
我才知道赚钱有多辛苦
以前
只懂得如何奢侈
但是现在已懂得如何善用金钱

当然
在这期间
我曾试图放弃
但是
现在想起
当时的我有多么的任性
因为小小的挫折
我便喘不过气
真的非常感谢蔡校长在那一刻
把我打醒了
谢谢您
让我坚持下去
谢谢您
给我机会改过
谢谢您
让我变得成熟
谢谢威望！！

这个假期
我真的学习到很多
吸取了好多的经验与知识
我很开心
很庆幸看见自己的成长
离开教师这个职业
便得回复学生的身份了
现在的我
和你们一样
是个平凡的学生
我们一起加油吧！

我的好班长 ：Sam

最令我头疼的两个家伙，Joshua & Brandon 哈哈 =)

笑一个嘛~~ XD

大家庭 =）

我与威望

行尸

四周被黑暗笼罩

一具行尸
彷徨无助地行走着
没有灯光
没有目的
没有终点
没有生命
更没有灵魂
毫无意义地生存
一步
两步
三步
终点在哪
她
不知道
一直走到滚烫的火焰
邪恶的使者
然后
生命终止
*消失*

STARBUCKS!!!! =)

WooHoo!! I finally went Starbucks today!! haha..XD
Well, maybe for others, it's such a normal thing and no need to be excited at all but for me..it is really so rare for me to go such high class's place..hoho..haha..=)
I so wish to go there to try the coffee since long time ago as i am a COFFEE LOVER..haha..XD..and tonight, finally got the chance to step into it..with friends..and i really enjoyed it so much..MOCHA..=)

So, went out gathered with Mal, Karen, Hong Lan, Guan Yi and Jerume tonight..organised by Mal this time..At first, we just planned to gather and chat at starbucks..but who knows, Mal's mum "belanja" us to eat Korean Food..OMG..my first time eating Korean food and it is so expansive..swt..=.='''..but it tastes nice =) really have to thanks Mal's mummy..Thxs Auntie =D
P.S: Auntie, you are such a cute mummy..and you really look so young and pretty with your new hair style..haha..=)

So, we had a nice time tonight..chatting happily among ourselves..feel happy every time we gathered =) and i know that, everyone are cherishing and appreciating the left over moments gather with friends now as everyone are going to start their future studies soon..So do I..i enjoy every moment when we are together even though i know that i still left many months to enjoy before i further my study..(well, seems like i am the latest going to further my study..=.='''..haha..lolz..XD)

And ya..i am very happy as Karen IS BACK!!! and she is fine..=)
I am happy to see her smiling tonight..=) Karen, I miss u so much..miss your smile..and it is really good and nice to see that you are fine and recovered..XD
Stay healthy and happy always ya..=)
Btw, Ah Bian!!! Karen is fine..no need worry anymore..=)

Well, i realized that i keep on eating nowadays..NON-STOP..zzz
And because of that..I GAINED WEIGTH AGAIN..haiz..=(
Go on diet??
Oops..i don't plan to do so..XD
Feel like enjoy now when i am able to do so..hahaha..=)
Just eat and enjoy as i know that..when we go study in future..there is no such a good chance for us to enjoy these foods anymore..hoho..XD

Oh ya, besides this gathering, my Principal (my boss..lolz..XD) invited us to have a lunch today =) We went "Huang Shang Huang Restaurant" and eat till so full..OMG..so yummy=) It was organised as we are going to resign soon..really thanks so much Madam Chai and i am really so sorry that i cant work for you anymore as i really have to start studying my Nutrition for the coming June's exam..if not..definitely, I AM GOING TO DIE..lolz..
I am really very sorry.... =(


Well, that's all for now..XD..
Thanks everyone =)Love and Miss you all..=)

HapPy BirthDaY!!! =)

Hmm..today our tuition centre organised a small birthday party for the March and April's kidsssssss..(but well including teacher Miss Chen and Xiao Chien too..hehe..XD )
So, it was the second birthday party i experienced in Prestige and it was MEMORABLE..=)
The first party..was 2 months ago..for the January and February's kids..i was one of them too..=D but, i am TEACHER not kid..haha..XD

the first birthday's cake for Jan and Feb =)

A memorable birthday celebration with all the lovely kids..=)

Now..time flies..May is just around the corner and i worked as a teacher for 4+ months dy...WOW..XD

So..just like the first party..all the kids were so excited!!! They were all waiting for the birthday party and the most important thing was..EATING CAKE!!!! While teaching, all of them were so excited that they kept on asking me.." Teacher, teacher, when is the party begin???" LOLz..cute man..haha..=P
Then..all of us sang Happy Birthday song and cut the cake..

so..this is the cake..it's nice, isn't it?? =)

the birthday prince and princess for March and April =)

singing Happy Birthday song~~~lalala..XD

Thinking back..Although it is really tiring teaching there but when you think of the other way..it is really touched and happy when you see the smiling face of the kids..i can say..the little innocent "devils" indeed..haha..XD
They are all too young to realize what mistakes they had made..just like what we were before..So..ARE THEY FORGIVEN?? OF COURSE THEY ARE I THINK..haha..but somehow..as a teacher..i am sorry to say that..I MUST SHOUT AT YOU GUYS WHEN U GUYS ARE TOO OVER..that is my responsibilities..and you are all my students..my kids~~ lolz..=)
Yea..this is the last birthday party i celebrated with all of you dy..one more week..i am going to wave goodbye to all of you..i don't know what is my feeling..
Happy~because finally i am free!!! but somehow..
Sad~because i cannot see you guys' innocent faces dy..
I am now keep on thinking..who is going to replace me after i leave??
What are the results of all of you in the coming exam?? Good?? Excellent?? or....Bad??
But well..one more week..doesn't mean that i will treat you guys nicely o..hehez..but i will continue shouting and scolding you guys until the last day come..haha..XD
It is my only target now..make you guys learn as much as possible before i leave..
even though i know that you guys start complaining about me behind and my throat is pain because of shouting too loud and too much these days..but i think it is ok..as long as you guys learn something instead of wasting time day-dreaming in class.. i think it is worth..=)
( "I scold you is for your own good" I really AGREE with this statement now..haha..=> )
So, it was one of the nice memory i experienced here..A GREAT BIRTHDAY PARTY although it was just a small and simple ones..=)

JUST WANNA WISH ALL OF YOU

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!
HOPE THAT ALL YOUR DREAMS COME TRUE
STAY HEALTY, HAPPY, AND CUTE ALWAYS
GOOD LUCK IN STUDY
&
GET GOOD RESULTS IN EXAM!!!
WORK HARD
STUDY HARD
ALL THE BEST!!!
MUACKZ
=)

微笑吧 =）

好了

任性够了

伤心够了

一切都好了

回到原点

暂且把一切都抛到脑后吧！！

=D

深吸一口气

享受那狂风暴雨后的美丽风景

正所谓：

“经过一场倾盆大雨后，天空将会出现一道七彩美丽的彩虹”

希望

接下来的日子

可以顺顺利利

哭

真的好累

想想

还是

“笑一笑，没烦恼，开心最好”

扬起嘴角

保持笑容吧

不可再伤心了哦

加油

=）

舒服多了。。

不知流了多少眼泪
哭了多久
现在
感觉好多了
哭一哭
仿佛把所有的压力
伤心
失望
全都释放出来·
感觉舒服多了
但是
心里所淌着的血
却还未痊愈呢
日子还是要过
明天依旧要来
一整天
毫无发出声音
明天还得教书呢
想想
真的好累哦
好想好想让自己放一天假
好好休息哦

但是
醒醒吧李欣倩
明天又是忙碌的一天呢
做好本分
当个好老师吧

好想离开。。

好想离开这里
离开马来西亚
离开这个愚笨的国家
然后
再也不要回来

生存在这里
好累
在不公平的环境
不平衡的社会
即使付出再多
努力再多
永远还是得靠那幸与不幸的一瞬间
才得以生存

人说
命运可以被改变
但是
一切已在冥冥之中注定好的命运
真的能顺着我们的意
让我们得到所要的吗？？

我一直坚信
命运掌握在自己手中
但是如今
我才发现
命运
真的好难被改变

打从出生在这个世上
我们唯一能做的
便是尽我们所能
当一个表演者
依照着上天所安排的剧情
一天一天地演下去
直到走到生命的尽头
咽下那最后的一口气
然后
生命结束

也许我不是一个幸运的女孩
没有幸运天使的光环
没有上天的眷顾
在生活的路上
一直碰上好多的阻碍
阻止着我往前进
一直在打击我
考验着我的耐性
让我一次又一次地碰壁
跌倒
然后受伤

我想和别人一样
看开一切
放下所有烦恼
开开心心，没有烦恼地
扬起嘴角，开怀大笑
朝向阳光
迎接着每一天的到来

但是
每样事情
往往不是我们所想象的那样简单
努力让自己开心
认真过每一天
那是我每天对自己说的

如今
我猛然发现
我真的好差劲
我还有好多地方做得不够好
学业
我还是半桶水
课外活动
我没有积极参与
工作
我没有表现得最好
思想
我还是不够成熟
友谊
我没兼顾好
家人
我也没有好好陪伴

仔细想想
我还有好多好多的缺点
无论如何付出与努力
我还是做得不好
顿时觉得自己好失败
好伤心
好失望
我付出的
真的还不够吗？？

也许
我对自己的要求过高
总是要求完美
逼迫自己变得更好
但
这一切的一切
不是为了让自己站在金字塔的最顶端
相反的
全是因为害怕

我不是一个会吸引别人目光的女孩
我没有所谓的吸引力
站在群众里
我只是一个不起眼的小草
这些
我早已见识了

因为害怕寂寞
害怕被瞧不起
害怕被冷落
害怕被忽略
所以
一直强迫自己
努力学习
让自己取得成功
至少能被别人看见自己
不至于被当成隐形人
为了这些
我真的尽力了
但是
始终没有成功
最终
还是宣告失败

想想
也许这就是我的宿命
继续当个普通的杂草
过着一般的日子
依照着命运前进
对于所谓的命运
我也懒得争取了
就让它这样吧

眼眶湿了
四周变得蒙蒙的
心
又流血了

放弃不是简单的两个字

今天，在网上随意搜寻，看到了这篇文章，感触好深。。。

有一种爱，挂着泪珠，但很凄美，它叫做放弃！

　　放弃真的是另一种爱？放弃真的是另一种幸福？确切的说，放弃是另一种方式的拥有！自己狼狈地退出，这不是伟大，而是因为在放 与不放之间我明白了，感情是不能勉强的，也勉强不来，就算我死死地抓 住，抓住的是什么？是伤痕，是痛苦！把手握紧，里面什么也没有，把手松开，我拥 有的是一切。

　　最痛苦的，莫过于是徘徊在放与不放之间的那一段。真正下决心放弃了，反而，会有一种释然的感觉。从此，痛和爱都深深埋进心里。

　　人生就是这样，难免有痛，难免有伤，无论我是否曾 经抓住抑或远去，那些东西都不可能离我而去，虽然有些事不能回首，有些回忆不能梳理，有些人只能永远埋藏。

　　爱上一个人是一件很麻烦的事，特别是你不知不觉中会为他放弃了很多事，为他做了很多事。而他却死 终坚持某种东西，不肯放弃时，那你是走进一个地狱，很苦很苦。特别是到最后他却说，错的是你，这一切是你自找的。

　　一个人一生可以爱上很多人的，而等你获得真正属于你的幸福之后，你就会明白以前的放弃其实是一种 财富，放弃让你学会更好地去把握和珍惜。不是因为你得到了想得到的，而是因为你是在 为自己而活，所以你要学会放弃。

　　放弃是一门艺术，它不是叫你盲目的逃避，而是要你明白痛苦的维系还不如放弃！学会放 弃，在落泪以前转身离去，留下简单的背影。将昨天埋在心底，留下最美好的回忆。学会放弃，让彼此都能有个更轻松的 开始，遍体鳞伤的爱并不一定就刻骨铭心！爱一个人，就要让他快乐，让他幸福，使那份感情更诚挚。如果你做不 到，还是放手吧！放弃何尝不是另一种美丽！

　　一抹朝阳云散尽抚琴诉情悠扬彻云霄此番心思堪谁知纵是无情亦有情许多的事情，总是在经历过以后才 会懂得。比如感情，痛过了，才会懂得如何保护自己；傻过了，才会懂得适时的坚持与放弃，在得到与失去中我们慢慢地认识自己。其实，生活并不需要这么些无谓的执著，没有什么就真的不 能割舍。学会放弃，生活会更容易。

　　学会放弃，在落泪以前转身离去，留下简单的背影；学会放弃，将昨天埋在心底，留下最美好的回忆； 学会放弃，让彼此都能有个更轻松的开始，遍体鳞伤的爱并不一定就刻骨铭心。这一程情深缘浅，走到今天，已经不容易，轻轻地抽出手，说声再见，真的很感谢， 这一路上有你。曾说过爱你的，今天，仍是爱你。只是，爱你，却不能与你在一起。一如爱那原野的火面合，爱它，却不能携它归去。

　　问世间情为何物，直叫生死相许……

我同意作者的说法。。

放弃，嘴上说，真的好简单好简单。。

实际上， 真的好难好难做到。。

常言道：

懂得提起，就要懂得放下

但，每个人都能做到吗？？

如果这就是缘分的结局

正如作者所说的

放手，祝福，

也许就是对对方，对自己最好的解药

放弃一个不属于你的人是件好事

因为

唯有如此，你才能在下一站

找到属于你的真命天子

=）

First Experience & First Time..XD

5th April..i gained new experiences in life..

1st ---> Went for JPA interview..XD

Well, i was shortlisted for JPA interview on this day..the first day of the interview and i was the first group..LOLz..haha..=D Just before i went, i still told my parents that i wont be the first group..but who knows..we really cant say things so early..i was really the first group and was shocked when my name being called out..but luckily, i knew my group members before which included LOG and Mr. Lim's son..(so ngam..lolz) XD

So, the interview was going on smoothly..maybe we were the first group..so..the interviewers seems like didnt know what questions to ask too..and they are really friendly and nice..(in talking la..but dono the way they give marks..is it the same?? hope so..haha..XD)

Well, the interviewers didn't ask us about any of the current issues, but all are just bout our opinion regarding our ambitions and so on like WHY U WANT TO BECOME A DOCTOR and WHO INSPIRE YOU..(well, the questions are predicted before i went for the interview) I was very nervous during the beginning but well after awhile, i really became crazy abit..talking with the interviewer freely and i really treated them as friends..is that a good sign or bad ones?? Was I respecting them while talking?? lolz..anyway, IT WAS OVER and I WAS HAPPY plus RELIEVED!!!!! =)

It took about 45 mins..and it happened and overed so fast that i couldn't feel anything..haha..XD What can i do now..is just..pray hard and hope for the best..JPA is my ONLY HOPE AND CHANCE..although i know that it is really hard to get it..but..i really really hope for the best =)

2nd experience ---> I became a Malay Girl !!!!

For this interview..i made myself into a Malay girl today!!! lolz..haha..XD
Wearing baju kurung for the first time..it was totally WEIRD..esp the skirt..OMG..so long..i kept on stepping on it..luckily din't fall down..lolz..haha..XD Hmm..now i know what's the feel of wearing baju kurung..frankly..NOT SO BAD..haha..quite cool and funny for a chinese to dress like that though..
P.S : I went shopping at boulevard after the interview..wearing the baju kurung..OMG..got one salegirls talked Malay with me..SWT SWT SWT!!! OMG!!! I am a PURE CHINESE pls..XD

I look weird?? Haha..XD

So..I gained two new experiences today and it was COOL..haha..XD..

HOPE FOR THE BEST NOW
GOOD LUCK EVERYONE
AND
GAMBATEH SIN CHIEN!!!
=)

好累。。好痛。。

我真的好累

面对这个充满虚假的世界
我好累
心好痛，好痛
感觉好空虚
没人了解，没人理会
像个没有灵魂的躯壳
生活在谎言与痛苦的黑暗中
没有天使
没有观众
没有依靠
永远就只有自己一人
独自面对
好想逃
好想离开
好想逃避
神
可以让我离开这里吗？？？
让我找到真正值得我依靠，
懂我，理解我，
关心我的人身边好吗?？？
我真的好累，好傻，好愚蠢，
让我聪明点儿好吗？？？
我承认
我胆小
我害怕
我懦弱
在坚强的外表下
努力掩盖最真实的自己
忍受着所有的不快与压力
坚持表现出最棒的自己
连夜的失眠
我好烦
在床上翻来覆去
强迫自己闭上双眼
但是终究无法入眠
好难受
令人窒息
为什么会这样？？
好想找个伴聊天倾诉
但是
却无人可寻
好无助
现在才发现
无形中
我真的失去了好多伙伴
因为自己的天真
我失去了很多
真的
好想，好想知道
我能找到幸福与快乐吗？
还是永远都只能活在悲伤之中？
我愿意付出一生
把爱献给需要帮助的人
让别人展开笑颜
但
我自己呢？？