不知从几何时
我开始畏惧
畏惧躺在床上休息的每一刻
我不懂
自己仿佛有预知未来的能力
说到做梦
自己也不是个常常发梦的人
但是
往往发梦了
梦也会跟着实现了
好奇怪
上天仿佛要让我预知将会发生的伤心事
已经好几次了
梦见了最不想面对的事情
往往醒来后
自己便开始害怕 担心 烦恼
甚至有时哭着醒来
心痛 心碎
身旁的人
总认为是因为自己想太多
可是
当下的自己
最清楚明了
这不仅仅是个梦如此简单
是个好特别好特别的预感
不好的预感
到底预知是好或不好呢?
当然 这也不是全然的坏
因为预知在先
当事情发生时
自己早已受伤够了
心疼够了
在该面对的当儿
自己也早已做了心里准备
在事情发生的瞬间
自己的心也早已破碎
一切的一切
也变得没什么了
算了
麻痹了
梦
真的让我又怕又惊
为什么会发梦呢?
又有谁 可以为我躯赶恶梦呢?
My dear Sin Chien, i was here. :) Read your posts and love your blog.. though u may be one who doesn't really open up, but the blog is really a good channel whereby you let out your emotions and thoughts.. and i am glad that you share it here and i get to know a lil more bout how life is for you.. I hope everything is better now.. as for bad dreams.. since young when i get bad dreams and wake up out of fear, i'll pray to God and ask Him to give me sweet dreams.. normally after that, i'll have a good night's rest. maybe you can try that too? just pray before you sleep. pray for sweet dreams, a goodnight's rest, a great day the next day, your family, friends and whatever you wanna pray about. That's wht i normally do. and i enjoy it. just sharing with you. :) I miss you dearly and wish we can meet up more often but distance is in the way.. i do believe though that we wlll meet again one day. miss u lots my dear friend. hugss! and always always remember that although u may feel tht you're all alone, God is ALWAYS ALWAYS with you.. He will never leave you nor forsake you. and I as your friend, am here for you too. although i may not know clearly how you feel daily, you are always in my prayers. love ya lots my dear friend. hugggsss.. take care and keep in touch okie? ♥
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